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| I have been very blessed thus far and i can only dream that my life will grow even more prosperous...
When i leave this earth, my only choice is to accept that when my time comes. There is nothing i can do about it. I don't really believe in fate, but some things in life cannot be stopped.
When my time comes, i can only hope that i am surrounded by the people i love. I am grateful for the friends and relations i have right now, and wouldn't trade any of it for anything... i care about all of you more than you will ever know. The only thing i live for is to see you all smile.
There is a lot more i'm sure i could think of to say, but i don't have the words right now... but at least i can smile when i look back at my life... i live a life of no regrets, and try my best to give my love to everyone. Sometimes it doesn't work out how we all want it, but if we try hard, then it can't be helped. Please know i tried...
When i die... it might be the end of my existence, which puts an empty pit of fear into the bottom of my chest everytime i think about it, at least i tried to see you all smile before i left.
<3
:D
Joe
this will be my last post. you've been good to me, xanga.
tchau
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there have been a lot of rumors circulating about me recently and permiscuous behaviors i have indulged in... well here's this.
Check it out Dogg; this game is a motherfuckin trip man
Word on the streets
Everybody always tryin to run up on me
hollerin about word on the street is dis nigga said dis..
Man I don't give a FUCK about what that nigga said man!
That's what's wrong with you niggaz, you niggaz is just like bitches
Hoe-ass niggaz, talk too motherfuckin much
Study your own, get your own -- yahmsayin?
Be independent nigga - BEOTCH!
-Snoop Dogg in Bitch Niggaz
Another show come and gone... and i can only hope that life gets better.
It's been a really fun week. I made relationships i never thought possible. It's like i was leading two very different lives.
And now i go to school on monday to get my ass kicked by all my teachers... get chewed out for little things... and begin working for the next production.
what a life... i can only hope i have strived to be the best person i could have been, and then karma will do the rest
<3Joe
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| I found an answer to my question. I need to find a battlefield to justify my existence. I dunno what that battlefield may be. In ancient times people used to express their value by swinging around a sword and proving to others they have a purpose. I may not be able to swing a sword around... but i'm sure there is a battlefield for me. It may be acting, or engineering, or maybe just making people smile... wahtever it is, i'll give it my all to be the best warrior...
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| I've been thinking a lot, and i've decided i'm losing my inspiration. I
wanna know what life is! What's it all about? I've already had a talk
with silk about it. Well, i wouldn't really call it a talk... it was
more like me firing off questions neither of us could calibrate.
Sometimes i feel like life is an adventure, but what kinda adventure is
this? You do your routine for an X amount of years and then you die.
It's like just by living you're running away from the inevitable.
Where's the glory? Is this really all the headway i've made after 18 years? I suppose it's all about being at peace with that...
but who can be at peace knowing that soon enough they will no longer
exist? I'm not a man of faith, and that could be a big part of it.
Maybe there's a kind of love i don't know about yet... but all i know
is that when i wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat and
fresh tears on my face, it's because i died in my dream.
I'm just scared i guess...
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| //edit: JOIN MY NEW BLOGRING IF YOU HAVE A HEART
Congradulations everyone that made it into follies 06'! For those of
you who auditioned and did not get in, i'm sorry and i know it's rough,
but at least you got up there and tried.
I am in the following bits:
Act II
Old Prospector
Rick
3 outta 5 ain't too bad.
In Other news:
This is my first post for a long time, and a lot has happened.
Actually, it's jsut that i've been able to reflect on how things have
changed in the past year or so. When i turned 18 i felt that i had to
represent adulthood, considering a lot of people my age aren't doing it
very well.
Overall, i'm impressed with my character. I'm a little arrogant, but
people usually tell me when i've crossed the line. But looking even
deeper than that, i'd say considering all the shit i've faced,
espeically over the summer, i've been pretty good about keeping my head
straight and staying out of trouble.
I've seen a lot recently... Not a lot i wanna say on the internet, but
i think i worry a lot less and am more thankful for everything i have.
I've also realized a lot about people these days. Old friends have
changed, new ones have become closer. The whole cycle of maturity and
the developement of the person i am to become has taken hold of my life
again, and as far as i know, i'm being pointed int he right direction.
I wanna thank Mitch Hild for bein there for me for this long of a time.
Even though we don't talk very much, there is an unspoken loyalty to
one another that can't be broken. Thanks meech. I wanna also thnk
Christina Hodge, because she's helped keep me in line a lot recently.
She lets me do what i want to do, but if it crosses the boarder of
safety, she's sure to let me hear her opinion at least 5 or 6 times,
which is usually the case about most things :P <3. Mark Wissler is
also someone who needs some gratitude. I'm very thankful for the
oppurtunity i've had to grow closer to him. I also want to thank Josh
Robinson, for bein as goofy as he is and makin me not look so dumb when
i'm goofy myself. I could go on and on, but just know that i <3 you
all. <3<3
I also think it's funny how Me and Bailey can't really stand one
another, but that's why we like eachother, because it makes it all more
interesting. I think it does at least. I still think you're hot,
bailey. <3<3
Ummmm... yah.... I might do more when i can think more.. probably not though. <3
So, that "probably not" turned into a "most likely" awefully fast...
something i need to get off my chest... sometimes i can't hide or run
from my passion for acting. My mother always told me to go for success,
but sometimes acting is all i can think about... new pic too
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